It's Monday

So...the shock has officially worn off and I'm struggling at the idea of finding a new job. I kinda feel like the Israelites probably did leaving Egypt. The news came so quickly to them that they didn't have time to leaven their bread (can you tell I'm still in the Old Testament?) but once they got out into the desert and away from Pharaoh reality hit. No food or water. And while I'd like to think I have a better attitude than those whiners, I probably don't.

The other analogy that struck me is that I'm like Peter taking a step out of the boat. Last week the adrenaline was pumping and I was excited to see what God is going to do in the midst of my job loss. But this morning I woke up feeling more panicky. I've moved my gaze to the waves around me and it's hard not to think about sinking.

I promise this won't become a bleak, depressing and whiny blog, but also wanted to be true to what I'm thinking and feeling. Whenever I've kept journals in the past, I've written what sounds best instead of what I'm really thinking...which ultimately is a waste of time.

OH! I did also want to show you this cool verse. I've been working my way through Exodus and last Friday, this was part of my reading (and an answer to prayer): Exodus 14:14 -- "The LORD will fight for you while you keep silent." Cool, huh?

On another note, I've realized that keeping a mental blog is easier and fancier than a real blog. I want to keep posting more regularly and add more pictures and fun and less words. So, don't you worry. I have plans for some more fun. But first I have to finish my homework...and search for a new job. I'll let the fun posts be my prize!